I thought I could be.

I thought I could be
all that you wanted
me to be.
The woman
you could come home to
that you loved
deeply beyond distance.

I thought I could be
the one who's salve
healed all your broken bits.

I thought I could be
all that you needed me to be.

I was wrong.
There was more of me
that you wanted.
The more you wanted,
the more of me
I started to lose.

The more I gave
the less you loved
of me.

The more you tried
to control,
the farther away
I slipped.

I thought I could be
the "Ride or Die"
you seemed to need.
Then I realized
the Ride would
take me to the Die.

I died a little
each time you accused me
of all the things
you were doing.

I stepped closer
to the door
each time
I had to utter.
"Dont call me a whore!"
when you wanted to fuck me
because you no longer
made love to me.

I thought I could be
meek and mild
submissive and loved.

I woke up from that dream.
I am wild
not to be tamed

I have a voice
I'll never again yield.
I have muscles
built for strength
you'll never understand.

I thought I could be
the 2nd in your lead.
I am not meant
for following.

I'll walk be side
holding a hand
but never behind.

I'll enjoy my walk alone
If need be.

I thought I could be
But I am happy to discover
I could not be
because then I wouldn't
know this new me.