Never Thought I would

Never Thought I would
Never Thought it would even cross me
Never Thought it would feel so normal
Never Thought I would
It felt so simple
Just don't do it
Just move away
Just move on
But after so many people go away from your life
Some by choice
Some by force
You don't know even what's right or wrong
You don't know what's normal anymore
And even you know it can hurt
No it will and does hurt you
And can even kill you
Special since you have such a weak heart
You still do it
Even after all that time
Of being held back from it
Just like it
You said yes
And it took you
Again and again
And you can't help but let overwhelm you
Can't help but watch as the darkness storms your mind
And build its walls around you
So hard, so strong
Never Thought I would