Media prompt: Run

# media prompt: one republic- run

It might be God, or possibly the universe around me. I doubt it's a coincidence. Hopefully I just have schizophrenia. I'm a seasonal drug addict so it would make sense. Music has a way of speaking to me especially when I am "running", and I've been running the wrong way lately, . Like the lyrics, I hit a wall I hit hurts pretty bad,I'll turn pandora on and a song comes on and the lyrics plus the meth I'm on, and what I'm going through in life. Some songs give me hope at times when I need it, lyrics rebuke me, etc. One Republics "Run" I read the prompt, heard the song, right after discovering this site. I relapsed 2 days ago, and been running from anything important I had in life. I'm now at the wall. I've hit this invisible wall a time or two, the impact hurts. The cons of drug addiction can be fucking tragic. Hitting a wall is better than hitting a coffin. I'm aware that my life is in state of emergency, the heartbreak, wasted time, families tears, homelessness and I don't like any of it. The high is not worth all that but something goes off in my head, then my stomach turns and Im a dope fiend looking for a fix. Its relentless . I run as fast I can to meet my demand to get high. It's sad, I'll shed a tear discretely picking up a bag because I know what's going down. I'm going back to a sober living house and that's surly God or the universe that made that happen. They let me back in after I broke a 0 tolerance policy. God, the people around me in this crazy world, or even mental illness, i thank you for the bizarre guidance that I think I get through music. To anyone reading, I do not recommend using meth or street narcotics or any kind. This was my first post on this website. I don't know what I'm doing. I've low key had an interest in writing ever since I watched David Dcovneys role in "Californication". That's all folks.