"What if she disappears"

It's something that has turned from a worry into a struggle.
It's something that at first, I never feared.
Now it seems that she is overwhelmed.
I feel as if I'm helping her create her own personal hell.
If I knew that I were keeping her from enjoying every day.
I'd be devastated. Oh so devastated. Still, I'd have to let her go, so that she could smile that beautiful smile.
A smile like only she can smile.
I hope she doesn't go.
I need her in my life.
Maybe I'm a little selfish.
Without her, I'd be a mess.
I'd be a wreck,
If she goes.
I pray she never goes....

-dg