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Sometimes we don't like what we see when we think and reflect |
The worst thing in life is when love goes wrong. It brings the strongest and ugliest feelings of hate and anger. I have experienced this from both sides of this tragedy. Something else destroys the soul, much worse, and when it happens, you don't come back from it, and it changes you forever. I can't say for everyone, I know I didn't realize the change. I don't think anyone really does. My relationships have ended in a way that caught my attention. The same words from different people over and over again. I care about you, and I love you with all my heart. I just don't know how to love you, the way you need to be. And eventually they give up. I am broken inside, broken to where I cannot be repaired, healed. When you pour heart into someone, your soul, your energy, pieces of your life, everything you are, and it wasn't enough. They give up, they take their own life. Without realizing it, they take yours too. Everything you gave, goes with them. I realized that something inside of me is horribly broken. Those who want to get close, who fight to get in have always seen it. The damage inside of me is frightening to them, and sad. I know regardless of how unselfish, how giving, how loving, I am, the problem will always be me. Love gone wrong isn't the worst thing life. Your lover, your life partner, looking into your eyes, and through tears telling you that they don't know how to love you, is the worst thing. In that moment, they are telling you that they have given up on you. |