Discouraged by my Run-Arounds

Discouraged by my run-around;
It happened during my done-around.
Doors that have been opened have
Now been closed. Being zapped of
My strength, I decided to take
A nap. No matter how hard I tried I
Was denied any possibility of
Advancement. Deprived of what
I was striving for, my vision no
Longer was there. With so much
Heartache and so much pain, the
Days passed by me with much
Depression. I began to regress
Because of the stress; I acknowledged
Too many voices when I tried going to
College.

Instead of medication, which made me
Feel tired, I needed support when I felt
Down. Being busy didn't help; the stigma
Of my illness made it worse. I feared
Success and I feared failure; the phases
Of my life, where rejection was the norm.

Discouraged by my run-around,
I hit Rock Bottom without doing
Drugs. due to a husband who
Smoked in the house, I
Stiffened up; I could hardly move;
He was also an alcoholic and a
Drug user. I could've taken the
Easy way out, but that's not what
I am about; I talked to Jesus;
He Brought me through it.

Without Jesus, I could not have done
It; He was the strength that I needed.
Knowing that he loved me unconditionally,
Gave me the courage to go on; I was
Truly blessed by a miracle. When
I get up In the morning, and when
I go to bed, I thank Him. He's my
Healer and my friend.

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Written by Anna Marie Carlson
Sunday, August 8, 2021