Depression& anxiety etc. are dreadful afflictions, especially schizophrenia & bipolar..... |
Bipolar and me. By B.D. ( based on my son's experiences) I’m trapped inside but not with chains But thoughts that cause me countless pains. Like a rubber ball against a wall They bounce around without control. They hurl about, disturb my mind With nagging fears and words unkind. Images blurred or dark that last Things from childhood or distant past. Anxiety like a cloak bound tightly Cause me to sweat daily, nightly. Oh how I long to just be me. The person I want all to see. There was a time, not long ago When I felt good, not sad or low. So where Oh where is he today Who used to sing and run and play? I want to be that man once more And wear the smile that I then wore. Once in hospital , the psycho came “Bipolar,” he said. But what’s in a name? Does it really help me to know I have symptoms, that will come and go? ‘Meds,’ they said is what is needed. ‘Don’t want them doc,’ is what I pleaded. I took them anyway, just to please And so my pain began to ease! But when I stopped , it wasn’t the same, And so I went downhill again! Hospital wards are now the locus All because I cannot focus. Don’t be surprised if I can’t talk When you take me out, go for a walk. When I find it hard to speak It’s all because I feel so weak. I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be rude, I just can’t help this awful mood. I know I WILL shake off this fetter And one day soon I WILL be better! For now the battle that I’m facing Is a merry-go-round with my mind racing. Please, please be there to hold my hand, So when I fall you’ll help me stand. I simply need you as a friend, Support me, love me till the end. With all my woes and all my care, Don’t try to fix them. Just be there! Please don’t judge by my appearance That you’re not me, is purely chance. Bipolar ? Yes, it’s a disorder But between you and me is a fine border. One day. One day, I know it’s true My heart and mind will be made new. The prayers for me are not in vain I will be well and sing again !! |