A Marriage Story

Staring at the dark
I lie awake in my bed
Brown eyes wide open
Filled with words unsaid

The screams ringing in my ear
His face flashing before my eyes
The tears falling down his cheek
I ask myself why

Was the love not enough?
Where did we go wrong?
I don't know how it happened
It was so good for so long

The smile was always there
Hiding the pain behind
Tears were always masked
In the rain of time

First time that I saw him
I fell in love in two seconds
His charming personality
In my heart got a check in

I was his only one
His darling dear forever
And he my sweet honey
We were to part never

But I always wanted more
More than he ever wanted
For my voice to be heard
Nothing I now daunted

It struck him like lightening
Our world came crumbling down
But we we're never happy
It was just the smile of a clown

I wanted to go my way
And I got it in the end
But I still love him so much
That it really makes no sense.

I wanted it to sort out
But the wave was so strong
It tore us apart, I’m sorry
I know that I was wrong.


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I sit on the couch wide awake
A bottle of wine half spilled
The TV on with no sound
I can't seem to fall asleep

The bed is cold without her
The house empty without her laugh
Everything so plain without her mess
My soul empty without her half

It was a Storm brewing since long
I had seen it in her eyes
But did nothing to calm it down
Too busy trying to touch the sky

I did a few things wrong
Got carried away at times
I wish I could turn it all back
With just a flick of the dime

Should have sat on this couch with you
And heard you when you spoke
And intently should have thought about
All you said in your talks

Should have done what you wanted
Not be a selfish man
I'm sorry honey for all I vet done
I'm sorry from you I ran

It’s all a dirty mess now
With lawyers and their laws
But if I could restart it again
I would have loved you without a flaw.

I love you and always will
For you ensured my survival
Without you I'm a dead man
Calling you for my revival