How does it feel

How does it feel now that we stop talking completely? Wanna know how I feel it fucking sucks I wanna text you see how you are doing how was your day how did you eat I wanna see the funny and dumb things you do but I can’t, and thats what I hate the most. I tell myself over and over I'm ok with not talking to you that, I'm ok with just leaving you alone, I’m not idk when but I will get over it but I miss you so much I still think about you. I wonder do you think about me probably not I’m the last person you want to think about. I'm still hopeful that you would just talk to me aayilah so that I can put my pride aside and just say I love you for who you are and I don’t care about the pain I wanna be there for you and just listen. And I know I could pick up the phone and talk to you but I don’t know if you want too i can’t hear what you think and maybe you did never have feelings for me but the feelings I had for you was real and it still is maybe that’s why I won’t put my pride aside I don’t wanna get hurt cause you did hurt me and I don’t know why I still feel the same.