angels and demons

People are going to think what they want to think of me. I know its disgusting, but it happened. And some people not even believe me, or think I'm making it up. Either way it still happened. And its disgusting as fuck and replays of it play in the back of my mind. If there was one thing in the world that I could forget it would be that. It really disgust me how people can get enjoyment out of it. But enough abou that, lets talk about something positive. Yeah right, like there is anything positive in my life that goes on. Iswear sometimes I feel like I hit a wrong turn and landed myself in a horror movie. If theres one thing I know out of all this, I have to stop eating fatty foods. This stuff is going straight every where, hitting all the wrong places. I remember telling someone I dont ash in what I eat from. Okay, Im having difficulty figureing out what I eat from and what I ash in. I just painted my nails purple today, im going back purple point blank. Why do I keep hearing a voice calling me stupid. idk i guess im pschosophrantic. So the story of why I cut my hair short. Well i decided to get vodka drunk with my step mom, evil stepmom at that, and she decides to put putty in my hair. yes, like wall putty that you put on walls to cover up holes. what an evil bitch. who thinks of shit like that? Im actually afraid to check my inbox on replys from this. Of course im afraid of what people think of me. The stuff ive been through, were just people. we cant control our thoughts. thats one thing ive noticed, controlling our thoughts. why is it that we have no control of it. people keep telling me to forgive and forget, but i cant. i cant forgive and forget. for someone to hate me so much of going to the extremes to hurt me like that. it doesnt matter, i know revengence is gods. thats what i keep telling myself, but it doesnt mean i dont think of having revenge on her. i dont think anyone should be so cruel and evil and mean to the point of going to extremes to ruin someones life. like are you just that miserable and hateful that you have to make someone else feel that low. are that much full of jealousy, not only to me its to a lot of other females too. you must just have a hateful soul. so i shouldnt feel so special or even dwell on how much you hate me. laugh out loud. the good witch verse the bad witch.