Always

Always

I may not write great love songs
I guess I'm not well versed,
versed with hearts that beat strong,
both blessed, and fairly cursed

All I know is that you matter,
I know when you're not here
You make me wish for better,
with a future far from clear

A future I'd not planned for,
a blueprint set askew
A solo journey bland, tore,
… realigned for two

A space designed for me alone,
yet now I want you there,
need you where I used to roam,
alone without a care

I yearn to be a better man
I want you in this space
I want to know just where I stand
I yearn to know my place

Staring at your sun too long,
with eyes stunned, double glazed
Finally found someone that strong,
the power of a gaze

Someone who could break on through,
these barriers I've raised
Fortress walls that once held true,
have crumbled, lost... Amazed

amazed at things that lived outside,
all this time unknown
Now I see the lonely ride,
I opted for, seeds sewn

Seeds sewn for a barren crop
with cold nights in the field
I think it's time to call a stop,
to natures law, I yield

As I lay back counting sheep,
this dream of you abides
Each eyelash counted whilst you sleep,
imagined by my side

Kisses lit on sleeping lips,
on foreheads rested light
Post it notes scribed in the morn
with fond adieus at night

Nights when conversation runs,
ringing through the dark,
freed from reservations, suns,
lost within the sparks

… yet love songs stay a mystery,
with pasts and presents tense
All I know's you count to me,
… with you it all makes sense