Dealing with your thoughts while battling depression. |
Today Today I wanted to smile, instead I kept frowning, Today I wanted to be happy, instead I was sad, Today I wanted to laugh, instead I kept crying, Today Today I wanted to eat, instead I starved myself, Today I wanted to be there for my friends and family, instead I distanced myself, Today I wanted to forgive the ones who hurt me, instead a held on to that grudge. Today Today I wanted to make my family proud, instead I let them down, Today I wanted to pray and read the Bible, instead I was filled with too much anger, Today I wanted to be friendly, instead I was rude and cold, Today Today I wanted my heart at ease, instead my heart was filled with pain, regret and frustration, Today I wanted to receive good news, instead I received bad news. Today Today I wanted to care, instead I didn’t give a damn, Today I didn’t want to have a care in the world, instead it felt as if the world was on my shoulders, Today I wanted to love unconditionally, instead I hated with all my might, Today I wanted to feel proud, instead I felt like a looser. Today I wanted plenty, instead I received nothing. |