Dreaming of a dream, wishing on a star Oh, how I wonder where you are Who am I, am I yours Should I count it out on my toes I am running out of air to breathe, falling on my hands and knees The world is so dark, yet is full of sound The colors feed and consume, all of them are so loud My heart is locked under a tie and key But my soul longs to be set free I run and scream, I twist and I shout While the music fills my being, But I still am asking how to get out My wings are lost, my shadow is gone I have everyone, yet they all disappear at dawn How do I find the stars in my night Where is the moon, the giver of a cool light My sun burns and churns with fire and passion But where is the moon to sooth my fear in a calming fashion I am all alone in my fear and darkness In my fears I am always so heartless Logically, I see the falsities in my mares of the night Though, my brain always puts up a fight The colors sway and fall as the night drifts down my wall and the rain seeps into my souls being How can I not go through life seeing To be blind towards all of my own faults I seem to always block out my true dreams and thoughts Why am I so full of unhappiness Why are all of my dreams full of joy and sappiness Yet my logical demeanor always takes over Then makes my dreams of joy be crushed like a flooded clover My life has just begun And I would do anything to keep it full and fun The colors dance in my soul to a tune unsung All the shades of grey in life shine bright and young The world is so old yet so bright Just like a mighty bird midflight And I wish to know this world As I watch the stars above me spin and swirl I want to feel a love within me I want to feel and know the rush of glee To feel my cheeks blush and the fire of passion and trust To have my heart break with passion and stardust Yet, this apathy never seems to leave me I just wish it would leave me be But my heart is not that kind For it always leaves me in a never ending bind The music may play a song and the lights may whisper my name all night long But my mind hides my heart and my feelings never seem to start I dream of a love and passion for my life whose place fills my life with company and light Yet my mind holds my heart so tight For the hurt it in the past took away the thought of light I fear that this new love and adventure will get lost In the ways of my mind, I hope it doesn't, no matter the cost I will never be good enough for the days in the sun I rain will rather hold my hand during the fun The clouds will whisper my name for this is the way of life's game I will hide myself under the rays of warmth But my lie seeps in the like chill of the morth I am the hidden lost child within myself I long to roam the wild, and take my heart off the shelf I am the one lost in search of glee To take my feet off the ground For this seems the land to which I am bound And I do not wish to suffer that of the night I long for world of stars and the sun that is so bright One day, I know I must be found To be able to hear the freedom toll sound And may that be the day I find my light And may it the the day that I finally take flight! |