the night before

the night before. before it all happened. a disagreement arose. time to take a break. for real this time. for the last night. let's have fun. fun? fun. on a quest to get weed. i began drinking. mikes hard lemonade. watermelon and mango. a smoking buddy of his joined. the only one up. and able to acquire some green. on my second mikes. i watch. they smoke a cigarette outside the car. talking. about? he drove. to some house on Cushman. it was cheap. i could tell by how my car began to smell. stopping at Tesoro to pee. he bought me a black & mild. hungry. we ended up at McDonald's. my card almost empty. filling up on fries and a drink. couldn't taste for shit. except pumpkin. by now i was on my third. alcohol and sadness. a dangerous combination.