The Irony of Killing Myself For You

"How do i love thee? Let me count the ways..."

I walked around in the freezing cold for 3 hours looking for a dog that belonged to you.
I was held at knife point and gun point because i was the wrong type of person to be in the area i was.
Guy A, B C or D didn't do a damn thing to help you, you kept your ass inside because it was "too cold"
So i did it. ME. No one else.

He fed you lie after lie and got you into his bed. Then told you he had a girlfriend who was having his baby and wanted nothing to do with you.
And I picked you up and was here.

You need help on your house and no ones coming around? fuck it, i got you. even though you're going to treat me like trash not worthy of helping you, i'll still be here. you're frustrated and just going to yell at me and cuss at me? fuck it, that's okay. i love you. ill take it, time and time again. ya im bleeding, ya im struggling, ya im drowning in my own thoughts and depression but fuck it i love you, ill help you.

you need somewhere to stay cause you cant stay at home and you're ex is a fucking psycho? come stay with me, sure bring all 4 of your pets. i love you, ill take care of you. wait your going out night after night with random people leaving me to take care of your animals, clean, cook, and you're gonna come strolling in at 4 in the morning when i gotta work at 7? fuck it, i love you, walk all over me.

guy after guy, tears and pain, and you still dont see that its me. the one who is killing themselves to be with you. the one who just wants to keep you safe, to make you smile, it was me who loved you with all I had.

Use me, abuse me, walk all over me
cause I'm the weak coward who cant walk away from you. I'M the one who loves you, i'm the one who cares, and one of these days i'm the one that's going to be gone when you need someone the most. One of these days you'll call my name, and ill be gone.

consider this my white flag, my last goodbye, my thrown towel, my three taps. I loved you.