Finding Myself

Close Your Eyes

Tell me how you keep me hanging on your words
Everything you say makes me hooked on you
You're too intense and crazy, laughing and amazing
There's so much else I don't have the time to say
And I wish I could count the hours we have left to spend
But your voice keeps getting louder, I can't get a word in
Just listen, listen to what I have to say
And maybe we can figure out a way

And everything is happening way, way fast
It's all piling up, and I can't get past
What you claim is love, I see as lost
You don't know nothing about losing this fight
Cause all that you want is something I'm not
I'm just a filler for boredom in your life
It's now in the open, I can see clear
Don't know what I was thinking, thinking you'd care

I wish I could take back all that I have said
Turn back the clock, get you out of my head
These scars are hidden in places even you can't see
But everyday I'm alive, they still haunt me
Why do this when you can see I have done nothing wrong?
I knew I suspected what you've proven to me as true
But why do I still feel as if I've been betrayed by you
I am just a girl and you are just a boy
And this time you have broken me again

And everything is happening way, way fast
It's all piling up, and I can't get past
What you claim is love, I see as lost
You don't know nothing about losing this fight
Cause all that you want is something I'm not
I'm just a filler for boredom in your life
It's now in the open, I can see clear
Don't know what I was thinking, thinking you'd care

You told me that you'd never lie
That you hated to break my heart
But how can I believe when everything I've seen
Points me back to you
You told me that you'd never hurt me
That you'd never make me cry
Is that why you close your eyes?

Too Loud

I was confident
Used to be tough
Where has that gone?
It used to be enough.
Never was for you.
It was just the girl inside of me.
Just me being me.
And they're telling me

You're too loud.
Would you please quiet down?
Stop talking, just shut up.
It's a waste of breath,
You're a waste of space.
You're too much.
Always standing up.
I can't just turn off.
The way I am.
It's not my fault.
Am I not good enough?

Now I am too shy.
Never say hi.
Where have I gone?
Now I'm never enough.
Never say a word.
You planted poison into my heart.
Tearing me apart.
They're telling me

You're too loud.
Would you please quiet down?
Stop talking, just shut up.
It's a waste of breath,
You're a waste of space.
You're too much.
Always standing up.
Making a show for everyone else.
I can't just turn off.
The way I am.
It's not my fault.
Am I not good enough?

Talking, talking, talking.
Quiet, quiet, quiet.
I can't help it.
I can't stand it.
You make fun of me.
Everything I do and see.
It's nothing in your eyes.
I'm in misery when you tell me.

You're too loud.
Would you please quiet down?
Stop talking, just shut up.
It's a waste of breath,
You're a waste of space.
You're too much.
Always standing up.
I can't just turn off.
The way I am.
It's not my fault.
Am I not good enough?

Dance Through the Flames
I used to where my tears as a crown
you crushed my tower and brought me down
I'd survived up until now
I used to care about what you said
Used to self destruct to conform, follow directions
I had my weaknesses held above my head
Slain by my own stupid fears

But I'm done with expectations, with the hesitations
I won't be controlled with limitations
Imma find my own way through my fire.
Dance my way through the flames til I'm burning with my fame.
Show you what I'm made of even in the face of danger.
Because I'm all I've ever wanted to be
And I'm all charged up, ready to fight through this war my way
I'm a survivor and imma dance through the flames
no matter what you say.

I don't need you and your misery
I was a princess with a tiara
And saved myself on my own
Your words have no effect on me now
No matter what you say imma dance to my own beat.
Because I'm free I'm ready to let it go
I'm so glad to say goodbye

But I'm done with expectations, with the hesitations
I won't be controlled with limitations
Imma find my own way through my fire.
Dance my way through the flames til I'm burning with my fame.
Show you what I'm made of even in the face of danger.
Because I'm all I've ever wanted to be
And I'm all charged up, ready to fight through this war my way
I'm a survivor and imma dance through the flames
no matter what you say.

I was once an innocent girl
Living up in my own dreams
Alone until you came along
And brought me tumbling down
And now I'm not so innocent
But you're no longer my master

But I'm done with expectations, with the hesitations
I won't be controlled with limitations
Imma find my own way through my fire.
Dance my way through the flames til I'm burning with my fame.
Show you what I'm made of even in the face of danger.
Because I'm all I've ever wanted to be
And I'm all charged up, ready to fight through this war my way
I'm a survivor and imma dance through the flames
no matter what you say.

Know
Hello, have you changed your mind
She isn't sleeping you know
Place a hand on her shoulder
Move away, she is gone
No longer will she breathe again
You can't hurt her anymore
How can such a monster feel pity

You took her life!
She gave you everything and
You gave her lies
A simple girl lying in the snow
A killer watching from the window
He just wanted to know-
What did it feel like
To have a life in your hands
Well I guess now you know

And as the jail bars slam shut
He begs for mercy now that
She's no longer here with us
Because of what you've done
We will never see her smiling face
Her laugh will not be heard
Are you happy you silenced her now?

You took her life!
She gave you everything and
You gave her lies
A simple girl lying in the snow
A killer watching from the window
He just wanted to know-
What did it feel like
To have a life in your hands
Well I guess now you know

It would feel so good
To teach you the lesson
You tried to teach her
And you failed us all
I hope you see her unblinking eyes
Staring at you from your nightmares
I hope she haunts you forevermore
Until you burn in hell for what you've done

You took her life!
She gave you everything and
You gave her lies
A simple girl lying in the snow
A killer watching from the window
He just wanted to know-
What did it feel like
To have a life in your hands.
Well, I guess now you know.

The Devil Inside of Me
I can feel it in my bones
Like a lost soul calling out
Like a plea
Can you sense the danger
In yearning for the future
But you shred my dreams into pieces
You're stealing all my air, I can't breathe

Please bring me from this state
I can't take it any longer
I can't stand this pressure
I feel like this is torture
A hundred thousands weights upon my shoulders
And you can see my silent screams
But all you do is stare at me
Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me...
Someone please save me.

I will grow stronger this time
Never will I fade again
Don't hurt me
This fear won't hold me back
I want to rely on you
But how can I even trust myself
When my ignorance speaks, for itself

Please bring me from this state
I can't take it any longer
I can't stand this pressure
I feel like this is torture
A hundred thousands weights upon my shoulders
And you can see my silent screams
But all you do is stare at me
Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me...
Someone please save me.

Break down these walls
Build them up again
The whole world is watching
I feel so exposed to all the stares
Am I going insane?
Can you hear them speaking?
In a whisper like this is
Nothing but a secret

Please bring me from this state
I know you see my silent screams
All you do is stare and wave at me
Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me...
You want my torture to be never ending.
Someone please save me.

Who else could you be besides
The devil inside of me.
Someone please save me.
Save me.

Playing with Fire
I'm not alive and thriving I'm barely surviving
just trying to get by without attracting attention.
The pain that I feel you can see it quite clearly
but everybody chooses to just look right through me.
I'm burning these words you once said to me.
I'm trying to forget but it's not that easy.

I'm just the girl, the one who see out on the street.
The one who knows your name but you don't know me.
You think you're so high and mighty, up on the scale,
while I'm down here groveling and you don't care.
I've been playing, playing with fire again,
when I know, I know, I know, I just can't win.
But I'm still here, I'm here, trying to be brave,
trying not to dishonor my name.

I'm still crying and trying, I'm barely not dying.
Just hoping to get through this with a little discretion.
The hope that I had was hanging just by a thread
that something should happen but nothing ever did.
I don't know what you once wanted from me.
But it's long gone now, I killed it with misery.

I'm just the girl, the one who see out on the street.
The one who knows your name but you don't know me.
You think you're so high and mighty, up on the scale,
while I'm down here groveling and you don't care.
I've been playing, playing with fire again,
when I know, I know, I know, I just can't win.
But I'm still here, I'm here, trying to be brave,
trying not to dishonor my name.

I was once a shooting star,
streaking across the sky.
Burning so bright I hurt my own eyes.
But you burned out my light.

I'm just the girl, the one who see out on the street.
The one who knows your name but you don't know me.
You think you're so high and mighty, up on the scale,
while I'm down here groveling and you don't care.
But I'm still here, I'm here, trying to be brave,
Still I've been playing, playing with fire again,
when I know, I know, I know I just can't win.
I know, I know, I know I just can't win.