A sense of the world gone mad.

T WAS THE LAUGHTER THAT SAW HIM THROUGH, FOR WITHOUT IT, WHERE WOULD HE HAVE BEING. LIFE WITH ITS HARDSHIPS, AND MISERIES, AT TIMES TOO MUCH TO BEAR. BUT THE HUMOUR, THE FUNNY WAY OF LOOKING AT LIFE AND THE PEOPLE IN IT, WERE HIS ONLY SAVING GRACE AT TIMES.

SAVING HIM FROM A PATH OF VIOLENCE, THAT WOULD ONLY LEAD TO REGRET AND REMORSE, AND HE KNEW THAT BEFORE HE EVEN STEPPED ONTO THAT PATH. BUT THIS TIME ROUND, THE HUMOUR IN THE SITUATION WAS VERY HARD, IF NOT IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND. WHAT'S FUNNY ABOUT BETRAYAL, DISLOYALTY, AND DISHONESTY ?

THE PHILOSOPHICAL MUSINGS, THE ACCEPTANCE OF LIFE AS IT IS, NOT HELPING TO ASSUAGE AND CALM HIS MIND. 'HOW COULD SHE', HE HAD ASKED HIMSELF MANY TIMES, AS HE TWISTED AND TURNED IN BED AT NIGHT, UNABLE TO SLEEP.

TO SLEEP WITH HIS BROTHER, HIS HATED AND DESPISED BROTHER, WHO IN MORE THAN ONE OCCASION HE WISHED WAS DEAD. SHE KNEW OF HIS FEELINGS TOWARDS HIS BROTHER, AND YET SHE SLEPT WITH HIM, PUTTING IT DOWN TO AN ACT OF DRUNKEN STUPIDITY. HE SAID HE FORGAVE HER, AND IT WAS FORGOTTEN.BUT TRULY IT WAS NOT. AS AT NIGHT MANY TIMES, HE EXPLORED DIFFERENT AVENUES OF REVENGE, 'NO ONE WOULD TREAT HIM LIKE THAT', HE DECLARED, AND GET AWAY WITH IT. THOSE WHO ACT BADLY, MUST BE PUNISHED. MUST LEARN THEIR LESSONS, AND HE WAS HAPPY ENOUGH TO TEACH THEM.

HARD TO HIDE HIS REAL FEELINGS BEHIND A MASK OF LAUGHTER AND FALSE JOVIALITY.......PERHAPS HE HAD THOSE CLOSE TO HIM FOOLED, BUT THERE WAS NO HIDING IT FROM HIMSELF. THE ANGER AND BITTERNESS, THE LONGING, AND BURNING DESIRE TO HURT ANOTHER. LONG SINCE HAVING GIVEN UP ON GOD, AND GOD'S POSSIBLE COMPASSION. BUT THEN SHE HAD NOT CHEATED ON GOD........

'LET'S GO ON HOLIDAY TOGETHER 'TO GET AWAY FROM THIS, TO START A NEW, TO START A FRESH', SHE SAID IN HER GENTLE FRIENDLY AND WARM MANNER.AS SHE LEANT OVER HIM, PUTTING BOTH HANDS ON HIS SHOULDERS, AS HE STUDIED THE COMPUTER SCREEN AT HIS DESK. HIS BODY TIGHTENED, HIS STOMACH CHURNED, HIS BREATHING SPEEDED UP. FINDING IT DIFFICULT TO REMAIN SEATED AND NOT MOVE AWAY FROM HER POISONOUS HANDS. THOSE SAME HANDS THAT HAD SHE TOUCHED ANOTHER MAN WITH.

'MAYBE', HE RESPONDED,AS HE GOT UP AND MOVED TO THE BOOK LINED SHELVES IN HIS OFFICE. AS HE GLANCED OUT THE WINDOW, THE DULL GREY , AND WET AFTERNOON. JUST ABOUT MATCHING THE TAPESTRY OF HIS MIND,AND SOUL. ANYTHING TO MOVE PHYSICALLY AWAY FROM HER. SHE COULD SENSE HIS COLDNESS, DIS-INTEREST AND STAND-OFF MANNER. WELL THEIR WAS NO DISGUISING IT.
'LET'S DISCUSS IT LATER. I HAVE THIS REPORT TO FINISH', SAYING ANYTHING TO GET RID OF HER AT LEAST FOR NOW. WHAT OF HIS DESPICABLE BROTHER. HOW AND WHAT WOULD HE DO TO HIM, AND WITH HIM.

WHAT ANGERED PETER MOST, WAS THAT NEITHER PERPETRATOR OF THE CRIME, AS THAT'S HOW HE SAW IT. SHOWED MUCH,IF ANY REMORSE. THEY BOTH WOULD HAVE TO BE TAUGHT A LESSON, FOR SUCH DISRESPECT.{

HE WAS MORE THAN HAPPY WHEN SHE LEFT THE ROOM. NOT WANTING TO BE ANYWHERE NEAR HER,LET ALONE IN THE SAME BED AS HER. GLAD SHE HAD SENSE ENOUGH TO USE THE SPARE BEDROOM TO SLEEP,FOR HE KNEW,AND PERHAPS SHE KNEW,IT WOULD BE NOT BE SAFE FOR HER TO SHARE HIS BED AT THIS TIME,OR IN THE VERY NEAR FUTURE.

AS HE SAT ALONE IN HIS STUDY, STARING BLANKLY AT THE BOOK LINED SHELVES. CONTEMPLATING HIS NEXT MOVE. AS HE KNEW AND DETERMINED SOMETHING UNPLEASANT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN TO BOTH DECEITFUL BETRAYERS. HE WAS UNSURE OF WHAT PUNISHMENT HE WOULD HAND OUT TO THEM. BUT THEY WOULD REGRET TANGLING WITH HIM,THAT'S FOR SURE. HIS MIND SO CONSUMED WITH THOUGHTS OF REVENGE, HE WAS FINDING IT INCREASINGLY DIFFICULT TO FOCUS ON WORK,ON DAY TO DAY MATTERS,ON ACTUAL LIVING. JUST GETTING THROUGH THE DAY. HE KNEW HE HAD TO TAKE ACTION IN A HURRY,TO CLEAR AND SOOTHE HIS MIND.

SEARCHING HIS MIND FOR SUITABLE METHODS OF PUNISHMENT. TOP OF HIS LIST FOR PUNISHMENT WAS HIS NO GOOD BROTHER. 'FAMILY LOYALTY', HE HISSED ALOUD, SARCASTICALLY,. WHERE DOES THAT GET YOU ?', WAS HIS RHETORICAL QUESTION.

HOW TO EXTRACT REVENGE, TO MAKE HIM SUFFER AND HURT, TO FEEL THE BETRAYAL,THE SADNESS
THE HURT. TO MAKE HIM LOSE FAITH IN PEOPLE. TO QUESTION EVERY RELATIONSHIP, WITH BOTH MALE AND FEMALE HE EVER HAD. TO BECOME VERY CYNICAL, AND UNTRUSTING OF EVERY HUMAN INTERACTION HE EVER HAD. TO QUESTION OTHERS MOTIVES AT EVERY STAGE, AND TO EXAMINE THEM FOR THE SLIGHTEST INDICATION OF DISHONESTY, DECEIT, BETRAYAL AND DISLOYALTY.

THE PENCIL SNAPPED IN HIS HANDS, WHERE HIS FINGERS HAD BEEN GRIPPING IT SO TIGHTLY, THAT HE WAS NOT EVEN AWARE OF. AS HE FOCUSED ON REVENGE. HIS FACE WERE ANYONE TO SEE IT, AN UGLY CONTORTION OF TIGHT LIPS, A STRONGLY HELD TENSE JAW. HIS ANGRY BLOOD FLOWING THROUGH HIS FACE,CAUSING IT TO REDDEN.

CUT THE BRAKE LINES OF HIS BROTHERS CAR. WHO WOULD BE ABLE TO POINT THE FINGER AT HIM ?
WELL SHE COULD FOR ONE. NO HE WOULD HAVE TO CHOOSE A MORE DEVIOUSNESS AND HIDDEN WAY, TO DESTROY AND CAUSE CATASTROPHY IN THEIR LIVES, POSSIBLY BRINGING THEM TO AN END.

INJECT AIR INTO THEIR VEINS AS THEY SLEPT, AND SIT AND WATCH AS THEY SLOWLY STRUGGLED FOR AND GASPED TO BREATHE. YES THIS WAS A MORE APPETIZING POSSIBILITY. HE KNEW THEY WERE STILL CARRYING ON THEIR AFFAIR, ALTHOUGH HE CHOOSE NOT REVEAL THAT KNOWLEDGE. THEY HAD BOTH OF COURSE, BEING ADAMANT IN DECLARATIONS, THAT IT WAS ALL OVER. JUST A FOOLISH DRUNKEN ESCAPADE THAT WOULD NEVER BE REPEATED.

TO SEE THEM DIE WOULD BE THE FINALITY OF COURSE. BUT HE ALSO WANTED TO SEE THEM DEAL WITH THE CATASTROPHES HE WISHED TO CAUSE IN THEIR LIVES.

AS HE CONJURED UP AND IMAGINED IN GREAT DETAIL THE MISFORTUNES THAT WERE ABOUT TO BECOME PART OF THEIR LIVES. HIS BREATHING BECAME EASIER AND MORE RELAXED AND EVEN. HIS SHOULDERS DROPPED DOWN FROM AROUND HIS HEAD, TO A MORE RELAXED POSITION. ,THE CHEMICAL CONCOCTION IN HIS STOMACH, LIKE A DYING STORM AT SEA, SLOWLY BECAME CALM AND STILL.

SO MANY CHOICES,BLACKMAIL, BANKRUPTCY,. SOME TYPE OF ACCIDENT. HE KNEW HE NEEDED TO INCREASE HIS KNOWLEDGE OF SUCH MATTERS. TO EDUCATE HIMSELF IN THE WAYS OF REVENGE, AND RETRIBUTION.HE COULD OF COURSE HAVE PAID SOMEONE TO GET RID OF THEM BOTH IN A HURRY. BUT WHERE WAS THE SATISFACTION IN THAT.

SO MUCH MORE SATISFYING TO WATCH AND BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR DOWNFALL, FOR THEIR STRUGGLES. FOR THEIR UNTIMELY DEPARTURE FROM THIS WORLD.


IT WAS STRONG, STRONGER THEN HE. IT WAS UNEXPECTED. HE NEVER FELT A TIGHTNESS THERE BEFORE. IT FRIGHTENED HIM. WAS IT A CLAMP, THE HAND OF GOD, DESTROYING HIS CHEST IN A VICE LIKE GRIP. SUFFOCATING HIM. HE FELL TO THE FLOOR, GRIPPING HIS CHEST, STRUGGLING TO BREATH.

SHE RUSHED IN FROM THE ROOM NEXT STORE UPON HEARING THE HEAVY SOUND OF HIS BODY HITTING THE FLOOR, AND QUICKLY KNELT DOWN BESIDE HIM.

'NO,NO......' SHE SAID, SOFTLY, AS SHE HELD HIS LIFELESS BODY, CLOSE TO HERS..........