No purpose Without it

Why do I seem to feel like I even deserve someone to love me , a break every now and then , a happy ending to my unfortunate beginning . Why do I feel like I deserve a friends loyalty , and mother , father and family consistency. Why do I even feel like I deserve anything !! Is it because I would do anything for anyone in need . Is it because in my views, my good out ways my bad , is it because I've gave my last , I've loved with a purpose , I've cared for those who could care less ? Is it because I'm able to push through the pain to lead my life with my head up , or is it because the life I want for myself is impossible and out of reach of the reality of life that was already written for me ? I don't know maybe I deserve the bs , maybe I have no purpose without it , maybe none of my expectations were written for me , maybe what was written for me is just what I deserve . The battle of life , the fight of love and the pain of understanding . - V.Smith