I hear people call me names I hear my demons in my head I hear my parents' sobs I hear my life draining away I see them pointing at me I see the world spinning too fast I see the blood on my arm I see my life in my hands I watch as they walk away I watch as they change seats I watch as my parents look at my grades I watch as life slips through my fingers I feel the pain in my wrist I feel the urge to die I feel Loneliness surround me I feel dead even though I am alive I believe that I am worthless I believe that God hates me I believe that I have no hope I believe life is over Then one day things change Then one day there is a light Then I was fading away Then there was a life I hear my boyfriend on the phone I hear my friend's comforting words I hear people telling me I matter I hear my resistance break I see my boyfriend smile at me I see my friend laughing with me I see my scars fade away I see my life color my face I watch as my boyfriend plays a game I watch my friend as we race I watch my blades be thrown away I watch as life has meaning again I feel my boyfriend's finger fingers card through my hair I feel my friend drag me outside I can feel the love I never felt before I feel stronger than before I believe that I can be strong I believe that I am loved I believe my boyfriend's kind words I believe life might go my way I know that I am not perfect I know things will change I know that I am always loved I know that by this journey I have been changed |