Darkness engulfs me

The feeling of vulnerability... that aching deep dull pain would l don't even feel l deserve a right to decline ... who am l to cry of pain when l participated in the choice of this journey...
It is a journey l had not thought l would travel , its dark , it's thorny .. it's throbbing ..sore would have been nice but the deep dull pain engulfs my nights ... the nights are darker... the wonder comes and goes as l share the darkness with my soul ... the chunk of me is gone ... l will await to watch it grow again ... in the darkness l will accept my fate ... until the light shines again ... the end of the day comes to me with a dread ..