This is not a story........

I don't know where to start, I guess a few years ago. I was in love with a boy, we'll name him Chris. I of course didn't have the guts to tell him. I thought that nothing would have ever happened between us. After that, it was a bunch of shit that had elapsed and you know I didn't give 2 squirts a piss about. I wont reveal my identity, because i prefer not to make a show of my self. Anyway, like 2 years later "Chris" said he loved me. 😲 I was petrified. I honestly didn't know what the fuck to say. Well anyway "Chris" is like my best friend. We made our own little squad with people with the code names "James" "Francisco" .
We were the best of friends and I don't know if it's the same anymore. So, I the fucking dumb ass rejected "Chris". The next year, I started falling in love with "James" and when I told some friends it spread like wildfire. Shit. Now, not one of them talk to me. I'm in a real depression, I lost my friends. ;( Please dont make the fucking mistake i made. - knows