For all who fell in love with their best friend. |
I’m tired of this! I know I made that decision I made that choice I have chosen us to stay as friends Oh no, best friends rather Nothing more, nothing less But I tell you what I cannot always control this heart, you know? Just to remind you, even the muscles of it are involuntary. Yes, I know and I’m sure of it I’m feeling it, for Pete’s sake! I have to admit It is starting to reside in me I fool no one but myself if I’ll deny it And I’m terrified of what might happen But no! Maybe I can still ignore it I can still fight over it Sooner or later, I may just get rid of it, right? Or maybe I can’t? Scratch that. Who’s fooling who again? You see? Why did you let yourself fall for your best friend? If only it was I first, I should have able to hold it back Why it has to be this complicated? No, maybe, it’s not how it's supposed to But it appears to be like that Falling for me is already a threat in our good friendship And falling for you, too, can destroy it Falling for each other sounds a happy ending, right? It may seem simple, but it will never be easy Definitely not easy! If it has to be this soon, It may teach me to depend on you forever Like fishes in the sea, trees in its roots As well as birds on their wings I might long for you in every minute Text you in the morning, Chat with you the whole day, And text you again in the evening Ugh! Addiction really sucks. What if I get jealous all of a sudden? Could you handle tantrums? How about dealing with small pointless fights? I get mad for no apparent reason, I easily get “paranoid”, I got mood swings too! And oh, would you mind if I’ll doubt your sincerity sometimes? You know, just because someone out there was good enough to break my heart. Now, did I make myself clear? I did not attempt to dump these feelings for nothing If I am to fall in love with you, I desire it to be something you’ll be happy for Not something you’ll regret later on I should be fair If you’re whole when you loved me, then I should be, too If you put efforts to make me feel special, then I should do so If you’re happy seeing me smile, then let me feel it as well If you share your time with me, then let me share mine with you That’s how I see it When I do too much taking without any giving will drown me When you do too much giving without any taking will empty you And no one wants that. |