SCREENPLAY
OF A NOCTURNAL SCENE
It’s
the early hours. Silence and darkness in the couple’s
bedroom. He sleeps. She tosses and turns in bed for two hours,
sleepless. He begins to snore. She almost goes crazy with the
sound of disdain. She can’t put off until tomorrow.
“Are
you sleeping?” (She can’t, she can’t wait.)
“What?”
(the fright and the interrupted sleep.)
“Are
you sleeping?” (the heart beats fast, fearing the reaction.)
“Yes,
I was
sleeping” (annoyance and difficulty in the articulation of
speech.)
“Could
you hold me? I can’t sleep. I am insecure. I keep thinking,
thinking. I can’t sleep.” (The dark ceiling revolves
around her. She is afflicted.)
Silence.
She can’t move.
“Hold
me. That’s all I need for getting sleep.” (She lies.)
Silence.
He “places” the arm on the waist and holds her tight
in order to stop her talking.
“This
way is much better. Do you see how warm it is? It’s nice
when we cuddle, isn’t it? (She tries.)
“Go
to sleep, OK?” (He sighs.)
“Can’t
we talk a little bit?” (She feels a great desire to cry
because she thinks he does not care for her anymore.)
“Does
it have to be now?” (He does not believe that she wants to
talk at that time.)
“Why
cannot it be now?” (She realizes he doesn’t love her
anymore.)
“Why
don’t we sleep now? I have to wake up early.” (He’s
getting nervous.)
“Do
you still love me?” (She starts to cry.)
Silence.
He knew she’s going to make “that” question.
“ D
O Y O U S T I L L L O V E M E?” (She
asks in capital letters because by now she’s already
shouting and almost in tears.)
Silence.
He thinks she wants to drive him crazy.
“Tell
me, do you love me?” (She
waits for the answer, the worst
answer.)
Silence.
His blood pressure is rising fast.
“Why
don’t you answer?” (She thinks, as always, that
silence is a fateful denial. Silence. He is stubborn and never
gives in.)
“Why
don’t you answer? What’s up with you? I think we need
to talk about our relationship. (She is really determined.)
“I’m
sleeping now and when I’m sleeping I don’t love
anybody, I don’t want to talk to anyone!” (He shouts.
He lost his patience totally.)
And
she begins rapidly talking:
“I
know, this
is
not the best moment to talk,
you have a hard day, but I’ve been upset with the way you
have been treating me. You’ve been so far away, aloof. It
seems you have no more pleasure in talking. You hardly talked to
me today. We’re not getting laid as much as we’re used
to. Do you remember? We
were all over each other all the time. That’s why I feel
bad, because our relationship was so intense and now I’m
afraid of letting something interfere with this
history we’ve built. And then I can’t sleep. I keep
thinking, thinking, and wondering where I’m mistaking, my
share of guilt in that. And then I am afraid you don’t love
me as you did before, that you have found other woman more
interesting. More interesting than me. Prettier than me. Thinner
than me. Thin, but with a nice butt, well toned and hard. Upright
boobs. Firm and perfects boobs, staring you, staring you, like in
that song of Caetano (*1).
And the beautiful face. Smart. An intellectual. That’s it,
she should be an intellectual. Intellectual, but creative. Maybe
she is a famous writer. Beautiful, hot and successful woman. Maybe
someone like Bruna (*2)?
But better than Bruna. Yeah, you should have chosen a writer only
to tease me. Just because I write. A drop-dead gorgeous writer.
No, I don’t know… I am afraid. I am so afraid.”
(She is really disturbed and taking the conversation seriously.
She even thinks about death. She is over the top.)
“I
don’t believe it! I don’t believe it! Oh, my God, I
don’t believe it! What are you saying, crazy woman?
What hot writer are you talking about? Did you completely freak
out? Where did you get that?
At this stage of the game, how could you invent something like
that? You say I’ve barely talked to you today. But we talk
during dinner. And if you don’t talk before it was because
we worked all day at different places. And
what do you mean when you say we are not having sex often? Do you
know how much time is been since we haven’t had sex?
Don’t you remember? Do you have amnesia? We got laid last
night. We had sex almost all night long and also in the night
before. We have sex almost every day. Or maybe the “other
writer” who is taking your place in these moments?
I don’t believe, you think that something’s wrong just
because
I want to sleep. Just for today, my God! (He really does not
believe indeed.)
-
The thing... The thing ... (She trembles. Fear
of talking about “that thing”).
Silence.
He does not help.
“The
thing... The thing...” (She still has afraid of finishing
the sentence.)
Silence.
“The
thing... The thing...” (She’s still afraid.)
Silence.
He enjoys the stutter moment in her verbal dexterity and takes a
nap for a few seconds.
“The
thing is ... The thing is...” (She turns the light on.)
Silence.
The strong light in his face bothers him very much. Yet he tries
to continue the nap.
“The
thing is... The thing is...”
Silence.
He dreams quickly with the image of Bruna lying naked on him.
“The
thing is that I found a long strand of a hair on your shoulder.”
(She spits out finally, waiting for the huge reaction.)
Silence.
He is trying to get out of the dream, but Bruna keeps on pulling
him.
“Don’t
you say anything? See? Don’t you want to talk about it now?”
(She’s waiting, anguished.)
“Uh?
Huh? What?” (He wakes up from the short nap.)
“Look,
I tried to ask you during the whole dinner, but I couldn’t.
I was afraid. I was afraid, yes. You’d better put all your
cards on the table. I’d rather you tell me the truth. If you
don’t love me anymore, I’ll have to understand. But if
you think you still can like me again, I’ll accept your
mistake since you stop immediately. Leave this woman right now and
we can be happy again. (She cries abundantly. She appreciates a
lot that part of the script. A difficult role of a understanding,
betrayed woman. What a great performance! How much
resourcefulness! She cries even more and hiccups. It’s
moving).
“What
was the color of the hair?” (Finally,
he comes to terms and agrees to talk. He won’t fall asleep
anyway.)
“The
color… Why do you ask?” She gets confused.
“Bruna
is blonde, isn’t she? Have you found a strand of blonde
hair?” (He opens up his eyes and stares at the woman with a
smile.)
“No,
it was brown.” (So she thinks that the writer is brunette.)
“The
hair is yours. It’s only you. You are the only woman I have
gotten close in the last years. I’ve rarely seen even my
mother. (He gets back to the pillow. The blonde of his dream waits
anxious.)
“Was
it mine?” (She feels bad.)
“It
has to be... There is no other.” (He takes a deep breath.)
“You
only want to sleep tonight.” (She feels embarrassed.)
“Go
to sleep too. I hold you.” (Now he is very understanding.)
“Are
you dreaming of some woman? You never dream of me. (She wipes off
her tears in the sheet.)
“I’m
dreaming of Bruna. (He laughs.)
“Turn
off the light”, he asks.
“You
mean it?” (She turns off the light).
“I
do. This dream is so nice.” (Gently, he pulls her closer. He
can feel her small body, the soft hips and the goose bump skin.
His interested hand does the pleasant walk).
“Do
I write well? Do you like what I write?” (She is excited
inside his arms).
Silence.
He climbs over her.
After
all, he really lost sleep. At the end of the day, he loves her
very much and carries a torch for her. He doesn’t lose face
for not being too soft. Plus, he even thinks she writes quite
well.
NOTES
(1)
Caetano Veloso, famous Brazilian singer and composer. The song
mentioned is called “Rapte-me, Camaleoa”.
(2)
Bruna Lombardi, Brazilian poet, model and actress.
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