(12:01pm)November.25.1998/December.9.1998(11:21pm) Trisha Barrek Hopkins |
I. She stood looking....dazed With its claws hooking Without fear but being chased Coming closer towards her face Feeling the evil within Her heart in a faster pace Thinking what she thinks It's just a sin Making sure she never blinks The thoughts haven't yet begun Wonder what everyonr else thinks Of course no one wants to hear Their minds are too numb They just think she's crazy To herself they fear Her eyes become all hazy Death could be near Her movement is lazy Wondering in her mind Where she will begin to stear Getting lost in her mind Just looking....Standing there Trying to understand Why she can't move Looking at her hands Them....Wondering why she can see through Answers are what she demands Something tells her she already knew Trying to figure out where next she lands II. Feeling like she is lost Wishing she could be found Biding at any cost These thoughts she's trying to still understand All of sudden she hears a sound She freezes And stands coepletely still Her body begins shaking Thoughts in her mind are starting to fill Finding out to herself is faking Still she isn't sure what to do with this pill Wondering if she will ever awaken This dream is no longer a thrill Picturing now someone just fell Wondering....What path she has taken Wondering...Why to her poeple won't tell Everyone including herself has mistaken Her soul she would never sell All these mixed up thoughts She must take in What exactly has she bought She thinks she's going to hell No fear though has reached her eyes Her mind feels like it's begining to swell All she can see are blackening skies Her soul begining to drift away All she does for now is try to hide She doesn't want to cry Maybe it would be better id she just died But instead she goes to lay on her bed Praying that shesees morning Searching around in her head She has a feeling She'll be getting some kind of warning soon III. As she lays there She can't believe what she sees She doesn't believes she's here Nothing feels real Finally the morning light The warmth of the sun she can feel She isn't at all dead Still she doesn't know what to believe In her dream she remembers that she had bled Right now she wishes she could leave Don't get her wrong she's happy to be alive But she wants this thing to just disappear Maybe she's still in her dream She turns around There she lies To her bed she is bound She stands there looking A blank stare Wondering if she will beable to wake herself On the corner of her eye She sees a shiney glare It's over by the shelf She begins to cry This is all confusing it's not fair She doesn't feel completely whole Her soul and body doesn't feel connected She feels lost and completely bare But yet she feels like she's protected She begins to feel hope Trying to figure this out is her goal All of a sudden she feels amazed She begins to float She feels now....dazed... She sees herself in all this wealth She picks up a brush to comb her hair For some reason she worries about her health She puts the brush down Looks at her pale face There is a frown Wondering what is the case do they know?....All the people in her town Starting the day at a slower pace She opens the door....walks to the end Which path will she take today Hopeing a sign someone will send Wondering which way It all will depend If she should go or stay Wishing someone with her heart They would start to mend Hopeing this will happen soon before it fully falls apart Still wondering if all of ths is pretend She's confused and doesn't know what to say Hopefully a clue her way someone will soon send IV. Not understanding All this crazy mess Answers she still is demanding She has to get rid of all this stress All of this confusion why is everyone handing Soon they'll have to start to confess Is she the only one standing Not caring how she'll dress Wonderingif she'll ever see another sun set Or the moonlit skys Wondering....If she will see her love again The one she met Before her soul or heart dies To have him back anything she would bet Hopeing he doesn't stick to his good-byes She remembers the pain One like something stabbing her heart She tried to fight But his love left a stain That one special night These thoughts in her brain Get them out they are the ones she hates He showed how much he loved her But she wants him out of her sight Everything is a blur She's running from their wedding day One day that should of never took flight With him she can not stay Him she begs to ignore There has to be a way Things begin to hit the floor V. She looks very glim Still a frown owned by her face Knowing her soul she needs to win She'll do anything to get it in this case Tears running down her cheek Learning at a slower pace Knowing her inner self is unique Try to find her souls place She feels somethings wet at her feet She notices she's in a pool of blood It's beginning to boil....too much heat Filled with fear Her tears starting a flood Feeling trouble is near She begins to run But she is getting no where Wondering why shes become stunned Feeling that evil stare Wondering if she is finished If she is done The light is just a glare Everything in the dark Everyone is going up in smoke This happens all in a snap of a spark Not a word anyone spoke She has left her mark But no one is there to care No one is left on earth no one is really here No one is left to share All this evil all this fear All this confusion Still no answer to her What is this thing It's putting her mind in a delusion Thinking too much it begins to hurt She feels a sting Feeling a burn Way too hot to the touch At some point she'll begin to learn But so far not so much Having a grin An erie smerk Thinking all of this is some type of sin Asking for forgiveness Still wanting to win VI. Wondering how she got into this mess Want to hide When will she wake upfrom this dream No matter what it won't disappear It's too late She feels she failed....had died Stuck in this dream state It will always be near She can't break free She can't get out Sooner or later your brain will fry Your screams you will soon hear All the doves race to the dark sky A face happens to appear Maybe it's a ghostly spy She sees a hand Holding a flower Wanting to know that she may be damned Feeling he has so much power Wanting to feel it is what she has demanded But first she has to go into the shower There she has found sand A clue maybe....This is strange To herself she is afraid but amused Maybe this is where her life was rearranged But still she can't help but be confused The bottem turns into a tunnel.... She falls....She yells out and calls Soon she passes out from the colorfull fume And when she wakes shes wakes in the middle of somewhere No living to the world at this point She smells a scent like perfume She realizes it's a joint Wondering if this treatment is fair He will soon make his appearance Something familiar about his stare There is some weird interference Maybe he could be her affair Getting away from here....making clearance This guy with his very bright glare Is he apart of my dream Shes so confused it's not fair Why is he here VII. In a new place Where people are nice And his face Getting cold feeling ice Over her eyes....A cloth....soft as lace She can not see where she is heading A gentle touch to her arm They are going somewhere dreamy she is betting She feels he will cause her no harm She was right A beautiful scenery with colors aglore Such a wonderful sight She wants to see....smell....touch more The trees go up with enormous height This place seems far from being a bore She can imagen what it'll look like at night So different from before This is no longer a nightmare There is something in the distance she can hear Now this in my memory I want to store She is feeling no fear VIII. She hears a trancing sound She goes in the direction to see To only see this rare bird she has found No one back home will ever believe It's wierd the bird matches everything from the trees All the way to the ground Thisd place is so great she doesn't ever want to leave But all things must come to an end This is all but a dream It is all in her head it's all pretend All this isn't meant to be But still what does it all mean When will she be free A way out she needs to find But no way can she see No one can dream this long It feels like she's awake She is so tired but she has to be strong She knows this is all fake And in this dream world she don't belong She hears a voice He's calling her to follow She follows with no choice none her own She is getting mad She wants to cry He is making her cry He's making her sad She would like to just die She thinks it would make him glad She looks up at the black sky Feeling dizzy.....she passes out She hears herself scream She hears herself shout IX. She jumps up she's out of her bed She doesn't feel any different She's all confused in her head A chill up her spine is sent Why is everything so red Why must she suffer Something is wrong She's starting to wonder if she's truely dead Everything is going black She turns to her bed She begins to cry This isn't right Now she knows she really did die And with heaven and hell For her soul there is a fight right now who is winning....she can't tell They are playing a game She's beginningto know it well But in the middle she feels shame Her heart she doesn't feel a beat She's the only one to blame After all she was never strong This game it's one she can't win She now knows where she belong She understands now she must go with him She is weak....Everything is so wrong She has to go to hell Shes done a terrible sin That day it was too much She died when she fell Life never again can she touch Her ghostly soul....she knows so well Copyrig |