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What's the worst feeling to feel?
Depravity, loss, defeat, is any of this real?
It just seems so hard to deal,
with all those who will go tonight without a meal,

and i still feel so unreal,
it is as though my only will,
is to feel and feel and feel,
while the children out there would kill,

for something as little as a dill.
My only question is why?
and then I close my eyes,
and whisper Goodbye.