Today

Today is that day,

Today is that day you look down the scope,

Today is that day you make that final choice.

It all comes down to those final seconds.

Is it within your capabilities to act upon the emotions that have driven your soul to the moment before you?

Can you stomach the will to carry on in the moments that lead up?

What about the moments that follow?

Everything starts to wash away and you are left with only one choice.

If you succeed, there will only be pain but not for yourself.

If you fail, there will be pain but you believe, only for yourself.

Today is that day.

You pause briefly and reflect upon memories since passed,

Laughs that were bellowed,

Smiles that were cracked,

Hugs that were heartfelt,

Kisses that were cherished,

And happiness that was experienced.

Slowly those thoughts of happiness turn to darkness and pain creeps back in.

Love long lost,

Tears that have fallen,

Energy that was cast,

Battles that were lost,

And pain of scares that were once symbols of strength.

Today is that day.

You wipe tour cheek of the tears and understand that there has not been a tougher decision in your existence.

In these final moments, you take everything in stride because time is now very short.

What once seemed like and eternity, has now crept into the foreground of reality.

The choice that once was daunting now looms over you more than ever before.

You may find solice in knowing the pain will soon be over.

You think of others that will experience pain in your place but cannot find the courage to look that choice in the eye and say “NO”!

Thats when, more than ever, your feelings of helplessness and struggle manage to find a void deeper that what has lead you to this moment and you make that final choice.

A solitary tear rolls down your cheek and you think of a time when you were happiest, a warm blanket in your final moments.

I want you to know, it will be okay.

Tears will be shed,

Hearts will be broken,

Questions will be asked.

Why, why, why?

It will be okay,

Today is that day.

-Boxes

9/7/14