Life @ 25

My b'day was on 26th arpril.So,I am officially in my mid twenties now.I don't know whether you will relate with it or not but somehow I am posting what I am feeling right now.The life till now is not so smooth and beautiful,but is it really worth?Is it good to be 25?People celebrate their b'day very lavishly with their family & friends.Even I am doing the same but not for me this time,though I did for myself from last 24 years.Yes its a very special day but I don't understand why people celebrate their one year of losing very happily?What's so good in that?The pain of losing one more year and growing one year older is killing me from inside.I feel like I started ageing.I am getting scared from this ageing.I don't know whether a 25 year old feel this or not but right now I am feeling this,I feel much older than a 25 year old should feel.Feels like time is moving at very fast speed.All those time of "no tension,no pain" is gone.The time of innocence fades away and some sort of powerful anxiety and maturity comes from within.

Age for competitive exams are approaching.Time for marriage is also approaching very fast and we live in a society(Yes!I am talking about our great Indian society) where girl's marriage is the major priority for her parents and career stands second(Thankfully!This phenomena is now changing).Like any other girl I had been questioned many times "When I am getting married"? "Is there any boy in my life to whom I want to get married"?People who knows me also wants to know "Why don't I continue my career in commerce"? "Why I switch my career from commerce to journalism"? "Why I choose to work with hindi news channel,not with english"? "Why don't I leave all this,and opt which is left yet for me to achieve"?But only few knows the truth behind it all.Other than this,I have so many 'to-do list',but times keeps slipping away with every single day like the same way sand slips in hands.I should be happy with the things I have;and most part I am.

People at my age are having wonderful career,some are getting married soon,some are already married,some are searching love in their marriage,some wants to get married with their love.But for me love & marriage are two different things.Well,I am not getting into it but I feel both love & marriage are beautiful phase of life,and if it combines its the most amazing thing happen for a couple.And me,being 25 struggling hard to chase my dreams and fulfilling it.I truly believe just keep doing your hard work,miracle happens every day & there is always a right time for the right thing and I am eagerly waiting for that.I have so many things which need to do before marriage.(Yes!Like any other girl or Nargis Fakhri from Rockstar.:P).Above all,I am happy doing that & I have no regrets so far. 


I have noticed,lately I am being more social.May be I have realized the feeling of being away from my friends.I have realized its very difficult to find people who truly understand you and still be with you.I have realized people we randomly meet can be our good or best friends.On the other side,I have realized life changes & people too.It hurts when people changed or we loose contact or we behave like stranger's but,life is all about moving,realizing and rectifying.And above all stay in touch with oldies,talk to new people & make new friends.Right?

Yes,I don't want to celebrate my 25th b'day but I really want to meet all my friends from my childhood to now(including those who are not in contact)but I know this is quite impossible(I hope I can tell them one day that I really miss them).Its a special day as I was born on this day.I love it when people wish me birthday through calls,texts and they remember it actually not by seeing it on facebook.Those special people(my family & my extended family) in my life who gives me blessings,unconditional love & faith,listens to me when I am low keeps me going.Thank you for coming in my life & made it heaven.And last but not the least thank you GOD for being there for me.I love you for giving me the best of parents,brother and friends.I really want to thank you with all my heart.And yes,you know the things I want to change in my life.Please help me with that.I promise I will try to be your good girl.But what is so good to be 25?