If Only

If I only knew then what I know now.
As if; I could have ever known, what was to come.
Maybe, if I just would have trusted.
But, my eyes were blind.
My ears were deaf.
My mind was closed.
My heart was cold.
Yet, my body was young.
Therefore, allowing the turmoil within;
To become the worst part, of it all.
Eventually, feeling as if the grief, left behind,
Was meant to never leave.
Yet, I must ponder:
Would I of opened my eyes to see?
Would I of let my ears listen?
Would I of opened up my mind?
Would I of allowed warmth into my heart?
Would I of known what I know now?