Suicide

I have tried so hard to save others from there moments of despair that I have completely pushed aside trying to save myself.
I tried to fix myself, on my own
I tried to block out my thoughts
I tried to stop caring
All I ended up doing was letting my mind consume me
My thoughts are so loud, I can't hear anything else
During the night is the worst
I`m completely alone, alone with my thoughts
It`s slightly terrifying to know that one person could come up with such devastating thoughts
Maybe not even thoughts, maybe just temptations
They never stop
One thought after another
The terrible part is that no one can save me
You can`t save me from myself
Only I can save me from myself
And I don`t know if Im willing to do that