Lost first love

Too late smart
Today I found out my first love
She is gone, without my telling her
I was too young, too shy
She was too special to die
I think back, so many years I still cherished her.
But she married one of my best friends,
Forty years they had of happiness and children
When I found out I loved her so much I wished her all
But I still loved her, always loved her
Internet is great and I searched
And I found her obit
Loved by all, family, friends, all she touched
I found out six years after she passed
My heart a lead ball in my chest
Too late smart to realize what I never had
Sherry, I love you still