Bleeding Darkness

I need some help
In my life
And this story
Tells my strife

I'm a criminal,
A fool,
An apocalypse in one
And all I ever wanna do
Is just have fun

I knew I didn't wanna be here anymore
From the moment I was born
Trying to commit suicide
With my umbilical cord

Flash forward to when I was seven
Dad was drunk, I got beaten, there was no lovin'
I yelled stop,
Sister called the cops,
But they came here too late,
It's hard to sit in pain and wait

And now to when I was ten
Tried to commit suicide,
I felt empty within
Dad didn't listen, said I was full of sin
And that's when the voices begin

Next thing, I was twelve,
I felt done for, like I had been shelved.
Nobody here to love me,
Nobody to hold me in their arms.

Then I was fourteen,
When life was just so mean.
Undeniably cruel,
Trying to teach me it rules.
Runaway sister,
This thought in my mind like a blister.
Then she was caught,
Put under lock and key,
And who felt bad? Me.
She gets out,
My heart comes back around.
Few months later, kicked out
Then the rage came back around.
Wanted to rip off his leg,
Rip off that prosthetic and kill him with it.
Next day, sister tries to commit suicide,
And I knew that something in me died inside.

Been one year since the worst year of my life,
And I might be crazy,
And this thought makes my mind hazy.