The Party's Over... For months we planned and plotted, calculated and mapped each day, each hour movement by moment so to be at the east end of the lake at dusk or reach the ocean at dawn. Toes curled in sand at Narragansett Beach and again in excitement on the Zip line across the river in New York. Anticipation of his first step on to the USS Constitution; agony over whether crowds should interfere with that necessary photo. Special tour of the ship: he sky high when given the flag that flew all morning. Weather didn't always cooperate. Waterfalls in pouring rain, beach day shrouded in clouds, but we didn't care. Subway train maps:a rainbow confusion of colors and lines but we figured it out midst giggles and panhandlers and a guy who played the violin as if at Carnegie Hall. For six months before and seventeen days we fulfilled dreams a lifetime in the making. Then it was done. Packed the car with souvenirs, dirty clothes, muddy sneakers and memories. Configured GPS, counted change, drove the fast, but boring, highways home. Somehow the songs we sang on the trip out lost their music, jokes fell flat, conversations went nowhere. He would relive each day recounting the adventures to any and all. After the third telling I knew the routine by heart. For me each recitation dimmed the color, diluted the joy, until there was only grey water sloshing in the washing machine of our trip, memories wrung dry, and all the colors and anticipation drained away. Like waking from a dream, the dream faded, moments lost in the shuffle. Pictures used to settle arguments of where we did that or when or with whom. I keep silent, because for him each recitation brightens the color, enhances the joy... wringing every nuance and moment to puddle in dazzling brilliance at our feet. Into which, he jumps, with both feet, happily splashing. |