Pick Myself Apart

My face went as you fell in the snow
I cried, didn't want you to go
My heart, it's just been blown

I believed in you, set my trust in you
Myself divided
Because in you, I confided
"You can't do it", you chided
And it was then I decided
I couldn't trust the one, who, for me, provided

And from there, it was a downward spiral
Felt like my spirits could never get higher
Every single day, I was growin' shyer
And one day, felt my body flyin' higher
Higher than the sky, flyin' like a kite

Emotions spiral in my mind
I can't realize you left me behind
Behind in a world of woes
The only Jack in a world of Joes
Thoughts pounding in my head
Still can't realize that you're dead

Blood stains the snow,
But hey, I'm in grief,
I wouldn't know
I looked up and cursed at the heavens
Missing the time you were livin'

I tried to pick my head apart
I couldn't find anything
Nothing, nothing but a shattered heart
So I set out there looking for something

Set myself in my mind's catacombs
In there, set off a million bombs
So angry, hassling civilians
From that day on, I was known as a "villian"

So depreseed, only saw black and white
Looked down the barrel of a gun
Then looked into the light