Darkness

Darkness

Darkness laps at the edges of my soul
Paranoria runs rapidly through my viens
I have no passion to be around people
I'm terrified to be alone with thoughts of self criticism

The door slammed shut on the only glimpse of joy I was given
Shame erodes my bones
Guilt makes them brittle
Loneliness is my constant companion

The world is gray and desolate
All light is filtered out
Even the smallest beam is not allowed in
A wall surrounds my heart
I gave no consent to it being built

I'm all alone

Falling into the abyss
Twisted roots of desperation grab hold
Tearing and clawing at my flesh

Anguish and cowardice are my companions
Peace and courage have abandoned me
Sorrow and misery my only friends

Falling ever falling
Is there no one to catch me
Will my world ever be full of light and joy

Tears stream down my face
As I yearn for laughter

Grey and bleak is the world I inhabit
Sewage and mounds of garbage
Litter the ground of my self made prison
Willing or unwilling I must stay in my cell

Darkness has enter my soul
I am lost to all that love me
I am lost to myself
Forever lost in the darkness