A man is always looking back, because to him he has no real future. |
-Only Ever Looking Back- by Keaton Foster Did you see that There Behind me That creature Such impossible features A terrifying being From my past Only ever looking back I see nothing ahead Nothing to come All that I see All that I really know And live to understand Is back there My long lost mother And a vacant father All of my tortured siblings Those now dead Or eternally missing For a man With such a large family I am and have always been By myself Completely alone So does this charade go I walked along Whistling my song Pretending to be What I clearly am not All while looking to the past I can’t change it Of course not Nothing can change What was done And what has become It’s pointless to try Foolish to imply Only ever looking back I see what’s there What I left behind Creatures Monsters An impossible darkness Perpetrated by a family Those that should have But I fear did not love me They hated me from the get I was a mistake Or so the tale told plays I am a product of sin A once cheating mother Finding the arms of another Escaping the nonexistent father Of a brewed of nearly a dozen Only when she was caught Only when she confessed Did the darkness of who I was Fall down like a million bricks Only then did I become Who I am I was not meant to be A sin forced into belief Only ever looking back Is all that I now have There is nothing ahead No future filled with content An existence not worth a thing Did you see that There Behind me That creature Such impossible features A terrifying being From my past The more I run The more I fight The closer it becomes Someday soon it will catch me Someday soon it will devour me… Only Ever Looking Back Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2014. |