Three Years

3 years.
3 years ago marks the worst of my fears.
A morning of sorrow, mourning, and tears.
A period of darkness, a period of doubt
A period of aimlessly wondering about.
3 years since I lost you
3 years since you left.
3 years since your heart
Stopped beating in your chest.
You’ll never know how much I miss you
You’ll never know how much I cared.
You’ll never know any of these things
Because you were far far too scared.
Too scared to face the next blistering day,
Too scared to feel the pain.
Too scared to take the risk
To fall like the rain.
Fall with every inch of you.
Fall into the dark.
Let it entirely consume you
Then ignite the spark.
Spark that big decision
Spark that everlasting choice.
Spark the fact that I
Will never again hear your voice.
Down here on earth you left me.
Without your face around.
Sure to yourself that surely
I would be safe and sound.
It’s been hard without you.
It’s been hard knowing you’re gone.
It’s been hard to know the difference
Between the right and the wrong.
So still today I miss you.
I wish you here with me.
And I know one day in the future
You’ll be in heaven with me.