The Hunch

That knot in my stomach, t'was always there,
I yearned for togetherness, signs that you care.
The oscar was waiting, in time you would win,
While I fooled my heart, you would just grin.

I knew so deeply, as the hunch gnawed away.
I was a pawn, in the life game you play,
It was all so easy for you, that I could see,
In awe of your presence, my trust given free

So quiet, unassuming, that's what I saw.
Gentle giant of a man, one I'd adore,
A worker, provider, honorable and tough,
But head buried deeper as things got so rough.

Your wife was just nothing, a trophy you won,
A passing phase, when all said and done.
You never saw 'Me', you saw a walking womb,
I became sicker, I could see pending doom.

The pain I was enduring almost finished me off,
Fighting and struggling, like a frustrated moth,
I see you now, for all that you are,
And I can't help but wonder, if you ever saw my star.

So now it's been 3 years, time has passed fast,
I hope you found a healing from the lessons now past,
I want to believe that the children we made,
Will grow understanding, I didn't want Love to fade.

Life lessons I've been given, and they're mine to learn,
My heart's getting stronger, tho I still get The Burn,
I cope with the sadness, and suppress much pain,
But try as I might, life'll never be the same.