Loving Murderous Ideas

As I thought about taking your last breath, I thought giving you mine myself.
I was so caught up in all the pain, everything I would lose felt like a gain
The tears got caught behind my eyes, the words were smothered behind my lips
And all I could feel was nothing could every be right with our relationship again.
You weren't first, but I wanted you as my last
And I could feel this aching need to set our spirits free.

I wanted to take your life, I wanted it to be entwined with mine
I couldn't imagine a world with out you by my side
How you could you cause such pain, I wanted you to feel the same
I imagined a knife in your back while I stuck one in my heart