Trying to Let Go

If you could see how much I care
When the words you choose don’t fight fair
To hear the fatal words that says the end
Take pieces of my heart that may never mend

Why is this the road you choose
I will never know why and stay confused
Mixed emotions have become my norm
A sight of light and then back to the storm

Nothing with us has ever been good
But I still loved you with all that I could
I chose to take you for who you are
The wounds, the scrapes, the bloody scars

So I ask you take me as I am
Loving, caring, a not so perfect man
Little did I know when we chose to forgive
That was too much for you and short lived

I pay the ultimate price of loving you
For loving my friends the way I want to
Having to choose between them and your insecurities
Has brought this man completely to his knees or
Has torn this man from what he believes

I have let you take away what’s not rightfully yours
My heart, my smile and everything that’s pure
Wishing you could turn me inside and about
See my heart pumping as your name spills out

Not because it’s the choice I want to make
It’s necessary for the roads we need to take
I wish you, your life, nothing but the best
But now it’s time to give the mind, heart, and soul some rest

When I get around you or accept your calls
The hurt it of it all exposes my flaws
Your cold and hateful words that say “let go”
Force the demons in me to take control

To be a person that I know I am not
Maybe hate, hurt and anger is all you got
Or maybe it’s because you can’t see the beauty in me
All you want to see is the flaws, betrayal and ugly

So you took your stand and I would never wish this
So please don’t look to me for any forgiveness
This is how you wanted this to end
Forgetting that I was once your best friend

And although you may never ask why
It will be written in the puddles of the tears I cried
GOODBYE