Is There Light Out There?

Is There Light Out There? 2nd Version

I feel it coming on again,
depression's ebb is gone.
I feel it coming on again,
back, is depression's flow.

The cycle starts with sadness;
Sadness churns into self-doubt.
Aware of what is happening,
but feeling no control to stop it.

Stumbling backwards, falling,
falling into the deep hole of anguish.
Suffocating thoughts of anger building, building!
No longer in control of my senses.

Heart crushing agony.
Feelings of helplessness and self-loathing.
It's like I'm in a hole so deep,
not a forgiving light can be seen.

Catatonic. So let there be sleep;
As sleep is a blessing...
Or is it?
Does sleep not foster even deeper darkness?

Where is the light?
Has it burned out?