Sometime we must all find our inner strength to move forward. |
The day I left you with violence in your heart, your eyes lashing out at life, at love. You seemed to me a giant. A force, like a roiling hurricane, unpredictable, incomprehensible, terrible. Inside, little boy lost, alone in your internal voyage. Dying, screaming, don't leave me. The weight of your need, crushing, stifling, leaving me breathless and small. in it's enormity. Keeping me in chains, bound by the bonds of children.. Held tightly, firmly in the narcissistic grip of what is you. My needs disappear, like a chameleon in the wood, blending with yours until I am just a thought, an idea. The day I left. confusion clouded your eyes like a smoke filled room. My loneliness filled the room with your answer. My tears drowned you in truth. My indifference ripped you to shreds, the boy emerging, the truth, unsure. The day I left I took a breath, my first in years, filling my soul with freedom. Claiming the life long buried within. I remembered ME again. Where were you, I asked? Embracing the girl, lost long ago. Doesn't matter, I answered. I'm back. |