Outcast

How do you stop having feelings for someone to care about somebody so much you'd do anything for them feelings so strong and love so big that it could never be replaced with hate you go through your life maybe you meet someone else where do those feelings go you do it for so long you lose track of who you are you stop caring about the people that matter cause you can't trust anyone anymore but those people you love you'll always trust no matter how bad they hurt always feeling and thinking things will change I'm stuck in a place that's killing me anxiety strikes down deep and it wreaks havoc inside me placing the worst in my mind but you still love you still hurt and nothing changes why does everything have to fall apart things used to be so good I can't sleep at night I can't forget the things that haunt me the pain and the memories good and bad a mix of emotions that just turn to turmoil too much pain and too little good to make a difference all of this my life a sham and a sad excuse for remorse I'm weak I can't pick myself up and there's a whole in me a void that just won't go away no matter what I do and it oozes terror and these people I let so willing hack away at myself year it wider and I just sink inside myself exhausted and burnt out nothing to propel me forward just shame turning me up on my back paralyzed in fear