UNTITLED

I AM 30 YEARS OLD
SINGLE AND CHILDLESS
AND STRESSED OUT
IF THE ULTIMATE SIN WASN'T DEATH
AND SO DAMN FINAL I MIGHT CHOOSE IT
NOW DON'T BREAK OUT LABELS LIKE...
DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, AND SUICIDAL, JUST YET
I'M FAR FROM SUICIDAL
THE ONLY ANXIETY I HAVE IS WHEN THE BILLS ARE DUE
SOMETIMES LIFE GETS U DOWN SOMETIMES
BUT DEPRESSED ME....NO
IT'S JUST THAT SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD TAKE A BREAK
FROM THIS LIFE FOR A MINUTE...
HIT THE REWIND BUTTON,GET A DO OVER, START FROM SCRATCH
OR MAYBE JUST THE LAST DECADE PLUS TWO YEARS
OR MAYBE JUST GO BACK IN TIME TO THE DAY
WHEN I WAS BARELY 12 AND YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE GOING TO LEAVE ME
MAYBE THIS TIME I WOULD SPEAK INSTEAD OF BEING SILENT
SAY SOMETHING TO MAKE U STAY HERE WITH ME
NO MOMMY ...
PLEASE DON'T GO A,
WAY
I WON'T MAKE IT WITHOUT U
I LOVE U
WHEN I THINK ABOUT LIFE
I THINK ABOUT THE SECOND CHANCE I GOT, THEY DON'T DESERVE AND HOW YOU DID

WHEN I THINK ABOUT DEATH
I THINK ABOUT U AND THE OTHERS THAT I'VE LOST...TOO MANY TO COUNT
I THINK ABOUT IF BEING FINAL AND HOW NOTHING COULD BE CHANGED IF MINE CAME TODAY.
SO I TRY MY HARDEST TO GET IT RIGHT TODAY
AGE IS SUPPOSED TO BRING PATIENCE AND WISDOM
TWO THINGS THAT ARE TAUGHT THROUGH LIFE'S LESSONS....OUR EXPERIENCES....
AND I EXPERIENCE MISSING YOU EVERYDAY
I AM YOUR LEGACY
HOW AM I DOING?