On My Own

I trusted so many before you,
Even though I knew there was none to compare.
Lord, You were there as long as I remember,
Waiting to hold my hand, but it was me who did not care.
If only I had trusted and relied on your love,
Today would have been very much different,
And there would be nothing to despair.

Happiness eluded me time and again,
Not because you did not love,
But due to my own folly as I did not care.
I trusted my own ego and moved on,
In search of worldly joys that did not exist,
The temptations which I could not resist,
And wasted my life even though you much cared.

Success was always so near,
But could not write my name on it.
I had all that was needed but somehow it did not click.
It is not always easy to be on the same side,
And come out a winner without you as our guide.
However much we try, the target will go astray,
The best of archer will fail with the blink of an eye.

So trust in Him who is our creator,
His mighty hand is there ever near.
We cannot do anything without his will,
As much as we try, just as an old cranky mill.
His love endures forever because He cares,
On your own, O Creation, please don’t dare,
Without His power, life will be just a nightmare.

Now that I have learnt my lesson,
I will walk in His ways.
Storms will still be there but I trust in his grace.
In the midst of troubles and drowning waters, He will make a way,
Lift us up so that we don’t go astray.
And when this life comes to an end,
I will lay into "HIS" arms fully content.

Submitted as July Entry for "Newbies ONLY short story & Poem Contest (Monthly) ". Won the 3rd Place