Thoughts

I understand that the world may change and my philosophy would follow but this is a declaration of my beliefs in this world. All I really have are my beliefs and knowledge; I’m no great English novelist, no brilliant mathematician, no dedicated sculptor, and no forward-looking engineering. I’m just a human who wishes to contribute what little they have to society. Small as it may be, it is my honest feelings and opinions on the world.
Let me begin by saying that life is pretty good for what it is. When I say this, I mean that although things may seem bad, it’s all in one’s perspective. Everything in this world is relative; There will always be a greater evil and a greater good than what is currently present and it shall always be easier to remember harsh memories than heartfelt moments.
I believe that people generally strive to do their best if they truly care. If one slacks off in an aspect of their life, it is only because their interests are elsewhere. While it is good to be dedicated to a dream, such as your own mansion or some other example of something one wishes to acquire within their own cultural bounds, one should never cling to that dream to hard and eventually hard themselves and those around them such accompanying things would be pink flyods album “The Wall” and the Phrase, the “The brittle branch brakes first.” Again, I have to contradict myself, society, on the other hand, only really cares what one brings to society. “There will always be ‘just a nice guy’ lying around somewhere.”
But if society only cares about what one presents to it, why bother with any internal things at all? This I can’t answer for I am attempting to present something to society right now, a sort of manifesto. My dream, used to be to create the future, find a way to stop death all together by some body transfer means like in Ecliphse Phase and the general Transhumanist argument but now I’ve grown tired of this idea while still trying to believe in it out of fear.
Death frightens me as I believe it does everyone; It’s incredibly kind of our minds to distract from the idea of our own death but the fear still lingers in the backs of every one’s mind. As such, I hoped to create a future where one could live forever, and with the increase in technology, I still believe this to be possible. I have given up on this dream for a few reasons. The first being that I am not passionate enough to bring this dream into reality, perhaps when a close relative dies, it will shock me into again pursing it, but for now, I simply do not hold the endurance and fortitude to take on the task. The second being that I feel that even if one were to immortalize humans, it would be detrimental to society for the real core issue of today’s problems reside in overpopulation, even if humans were able to live completely digitally, they would still require resources such as electricity and it would only be so long before earth is truly over-populated. Third, even if one were to be immortal, the rest of the universe is not, any number of things could wipe out the human race instantaneously. Fourth, the dangers of living forever and such computer viruses and the horrors that would plague the mix of digital culture and digital humans.
As such, my current stance on death, it that it is unavoidable and horrific. Even so, I still believe the gift of life is still more miraculous than the horror of death. It is not abnormal for things to end, as far as we know, the majority of things we understand has an end even if it is only the breakdown of what it is into its parts.
Am I running from this dream of a man-made heaven? My current plan to enroll in a Science Education major and live an objectively better life. If I were to continue at my college, I doubt I will ever be able to partake in a true college life style (my college is a very education-focused school with an overwhelming majority of straight white males). I would then continue off from there and study various biomedical applications in industry and research and work to create my dream (at best I would only be able to assist in finding something that would aide future generations of scientists who would complete my dream). Whereas at the other college, I would be able to go on to education grad schoolers about science and hopefully inspire the next batch of geniuses while also having the summer to myself to pursure other interests such as DJ on radio and become passionate again about an instrument.
The real problem seems to be passion, where does one get it and is it important in life. Do I need to be the best at something? Realistically, no, I probably will never be but it is what society feels like it is pressuring me to do.
Although I seem to be floundering between the two futures, I am currently hoping for the later, the more acchieavable, to become true even though the pressure to achieve the impossible looms (Is this where the tyler durden rant about how everyone is expected to be the greatest comes in).
And then comes in the other side, If life is truly just about pleasing ones self and following one’s own goals, is there a point? Probably not, and there probably doesn’t need to be. Do I then just run around like an idiot, doing thigns only for my own entertainment? Do I just give up? Do I need to keep on living?