Insisting I

-Insisting I-
by
Keaton Foster



God
Up high
Oh why
Insisting I
Pushing
Shoving
Kicking and fighting
Screaming how
When and where
Why right now
After all of this
Why must I come
Back to the beginning
Away from bedlam
Leaving behind
All that I know
All that I love
And what I hate
I have a chance
When up until
This very moment
I have not
Let me live on
Let me go
Loosen your grip
Upon my soul
It’s not time
And if it were
Then reset the clock
Make it stop
Dismantle its gears
Rewind its hands
To another point
Place and instance
Stop
God
Above
Insisting I
Come home
Because I have none
I live nowhere but here
Wherever the hell that is
Forgive me of my sins
Those committed
And those repeated
I am one of many
Part wolf
Part lamb
Which parts
I dare not confess
Insignificant I can be
Rather I should be
It’s all up to you
I am just a pawn
You are the king
Kindness is your left
Unrelenting is your right
Point with closed hands
Just this one time
Stop
God above
Insisting I
Because I
For the first
And probably the last time
Am not ready to die
I am comfortable here and now
I am living
Don’t take that away
Even if what it means
Is quite different from
All that I’ve ever known…



Insisting I
Written by Keaton Foster Copyright © 2012.