How i feel when im alone, cant help thinking of being broken |
Broken. Anger, hate, fear and apin. So much to lose, and yet so much to gain. I can not afford to fall apart now. I know I need to keep going. But how? Why is it that I can not control my own pain, like life let's everyone else sit at the reins? Pulling strings like I am their puppet? I wish I could just tell them all to "suck it!" I look into the mirror and hate, that all I see is someone who might never make it, becasue others hurt me, but they know not what they do, ad\nd that I will let them, all becasue of you. I want to cut, and bleed, crash my car racing at top speed. I want this all to end, for everything to stop, for all of this pain inside to just go away. I want to hurl myslef off the roof, go away, just disappear, gone. POOF. I look into the mirror and hate, that all I see is someone who might never make it, becasue others hurt me, but they know not what they do, ad\nd that I will let them, all becasue of you. You alone started this cycle that may never end. I wish I could take it all back, like you were never my friend. I want you to just leave and get out of my life, forever let me alone, so you can cause no more pain. Becasue if you don't I will continue to stay broken, and we all know, that no one in this world wants a broken wife. |