She inspired love and confusion in my heart. |
I often wonder if it is just a disease. i have prayed and asked God to take it away. This battle with my sexuality, it weakens me. Why can't i love men? Why? What made me this way? I need answers. I don't know if God will still love me the same. God can u? Can i give it one more try? One more prayer, One more belief, Will You listen? I am afraid to look into the night sky for i maybe staring right into your face. Will you reprimand me for my sexuality? I don't know how to keep from thinking the worst. Imagining that God must have pulled away. I THOUGHT A FATHER ACCEPTS A CHILD, FAULTS AND ALL. I can sense it. My heart feels a little broken and am confused. Coming from an anti gay society, i feel like an alien. AN ALIEN IN LOVE. Its called a disease and gays mistreated but i would rather be put to rest beside her coz then i wil smile for eternity. I would rather look into the face of love because its kind always. Lovely eyes, lovely lips,and a smile that could melt the hearts of men. Brown eyes, Light skin, an epitome of true beauty. She makes me proud to be gay. I feel like an unforgivable sinner for i always run into the arms of love when all seems to shatter around me I can't help but think of the day when she'll break my little delicate heart. The day when my chocolate skin-brown eyed angel rips my heart apart. I need someone to tell me "hush now", "hush Rose", "quell the fears, darling" OR MAYBE THEN, I WILL BE STRAIGHT. |