Price to Pay

When you showered me with all those gifts
filled my crumbling life with a little bliss
I never let my mind even begin to question
the price I would pay for that little affection

All those nights on top of me
filling my head with "we're meant to be"
you never question what you were doing to me mentally
while I laid there to take it forcibly

You didn't stop to listen as I said no
Just kept with what you were doing cause you wanted to go
wouldn't listen to my cries as I said it hurt
their was no intimacy or romance, no reason to flirt

the worst was I thought I needed you
while you dirtied me in the mud like old shoes
I was to scared to be alone
didn't think I could make it on my own

I'm trying my best to get over it now
but my emotions are so crippled, I don't know how
you literally fucked me good on this one
with my chance of healing out weighed by a ton