a thought on what's been goin' down...hurts me inside... |
It's like watchin' another family fall apart and I can't help it no, I lost it I cry myself to sleep again I need to find myself a friend but who wants to be a friend with someone growing up in a war zone? I'm just watching the fighting and the arguing and I can't do anything I can't help so I run I run away to my room my safe-place my only shelter It hurts me so much it only makes me cry I can't lie and I try and I try to walk away I feel myself pull away. And I cry and I cry and I run away all I have left of them is a picture to go by and I don't even want that I rip my face free of them and I throw the family portrait away cast away yesterday ran away can't get the memories out of my head wonder if I could end this with lead.... Same story, different life. Walk away before I cry cos sometimes I can't hold it in no matter how I try, I will cry. They still fight and yell emotions swell can nothing quell this eternal fighting? No, it's just like before but now there's 2 more they get mad cos they had 2 stop playin' they keep sayin' it ain't fair they had 2 stop mom and dad ain't playin' am I the only one.... that understands why they told them to leave? They don't know how it scars they don't understand that they're trying to save them from seeing what all I've seen from hurting like I do but why didn't he ever do that for me...? did he know, somehow that he'd leave her and need someone to explain his actions or maybe more likely he just didn't care that I say it and got hurt.... but there's no time to cry so I'll wipe the tears out of my crying face. So lost in space... so u ask me no! why I'm so cold so hurt so lost so broken stay hidden black shroud no positivity in my life all a game shrouded in mist black hole hide forever no, run forever because I can no longer stay... Broken family portrait broken glasses filled my ears. Things breaking people yelling, screaming so broken... can't we just pretend this is working? no... I shield myself from it won't let this thing called emotion take hold left so cold inside I know some sort of warmth should be but I have shut the world away this world has left my soul frozen cold-blooded and callous emotionless... and when they do stir, they're quickly suppressed so paranoid and I will never change. So how can I believe this could be any different? Shut the world away and I will leave today because I know you never loved me I know you never will. carry meaning? Here it is... humans are cold they're greedy they're vein. They think nothing of hurting others or each other. So I'll kiss my faith goodbye try to fight another day and I will walk away. |